I have been absolutely horrible about updating this blog but I’ve been soooooooooo busy! I had a bunch of craft shows this year, and more lined up for the spring. Right now I’m going on hiatus for the rest of the month. I’m taking a *winter* vacation and going to visit friends in Amsterdam! Prepare yourselves for massive photo drop when I get back!
So much going on. I try to update every so often but with a looming deadline, I’ve been neglecting my poor blog.
Next week is my 26th birthday, and my craft show. I hate when people ask me what I want for my birthday, I haven’t really thought about it, I’ve been so focused on my craft show deadline and making as much stuff as possible.
I’ve been shifting my focus from individual pieces to small collections and I’m seeing some success. At least as far as traffic on my page goes.
I’d like to collaborate with other artists here in the near future. Maybe a fashion designer, providing accessories or with a model to really do my jewelry justice but we’ll see. I’ve gotta get past this craft show first.
I also set up an account on Thumbtack, trying to pick up more face painting jobs. Hoping to generate some extra income.
I’ve also been searching obsessively for a new job, trying to find a better, preferably full time job but I haven’t had much luck, which is frustrating, to say the least.
I keep hoping for a turn around that will help with my financial situation but it’s hard to stay positive when nothing seems to be forthcoming.
The International Gem and Jewelry Show made it’s way back to Dulles today. I went for the first time back in May and got some really great beads for super cheap.
I was worried about making the trip today, because my finances are so tight, but I’m relieved to say, not only did I find some really awesome stuff for super discounted, last day of the show prices, I was able to get into the Wholesaler’s Area. You have to be a legitimate business to get in there and last time I went to the show, I wasn’t allowed in.
Today though, I could see some really sparkly stuff on the other side of the curtain and decided to give it a try. I had some of my business cards on me. I filled out the form. Checked off the box for “designer” and a quick glance at my business card and a star stamp on the back of my hand and I was IN! Nothing like being let into an exclusive area to make you feel legitimate!
There was so many precious and semi-precious stones and crystals and precious metals, it made my head spin! It was dazzling to my poor eyes! My inner magpie was squealing away in excitement. I couldn’t do a lot of shopping, my poor wallet is so thin right now, but I think it made me more conscientious of what I was choosing to spend my money on and consequently, I think I definitely got more bang for my buck. Definitely a good business management lesson to be had, albeit a frustrating one.
We cut our visit short since we got there so late and the show ended at 5 but after a while, all the sparkle was just running together and we couldn’t even focus on anything and so much of it was soooooooooo expensive. Even if it was, supposedly, at wholesale prices.
Something I learned was, when going to these shows, know how much gold and silver are going for, because they base a lot of the prices on weight per ounce. They’re supposed to weigh the object in front of you, let you see the ounces on the scale, then calculate the price based on the current price per ounce. If they won’t weigh it in front of you, they’re trying to overcharge you.
Overall it was a successful trip and I’m feeling inspired, since I really had to pay attention to what I was buying, everything I got is stuff that definitely resonated with me and I can’t wait to get to creating with it.
I know I don’t get a lot of traffic through here but I’m in a bit of a tough situation financially and if you could, please take a look at my gofundme page. I need to come up with $1000 in the next month to secure my wedding venue and I can’t do it alone. I’ve set up a gofundme page and if you could please donate, whatever you can, it would be greatly appreciated! Even $1 is a step in the right direction and I’m offering some pretty awesome prizes if you donate. . . everything from drawings to jewelry to hand painted housewares! I wouldn’t ask for help if I didn’t really, truly, genuinely need it so please, even if you don’t donate, could you help spread the word to more people who might?
http://www.gofundme.com/ciz7zg is my campaign. Please help me out!
apparently y’all really like reading about my humdrum daily goings on! My last post received 54 views! Wow!
So after my last post, I ended up spending all day painting. Enjoy the eye candy:
This is only the base coat and I still have a couple of glasses to go, but when I’m done, this will be a set of 6 shot glasses and a matching serving tray and decanter.
. . . at keeping up with this blog.
Summer is in full swing and I’ve been so busy with work (hey there, overtime!), I’ve hardly been online at all! I’ve barely had time to eat! Being a head guard is hard! This summer it seems like something is ALWAYS going wrong! In a 9 hour shift I might get 5 mins to myself. I’ve had several times where I’ve been too busy to eat at all
I hate skipping meals though because then I go way overboard when I have a few moments and realize HOW hungry I am.
I’m not gonna lie, the first few weeks of summer were rough. There was so much I had to learn and so much I was getting yelled at for not knowing. It was very frustrating. I want to do a good job and I’m so happy to finally be given the opportunity to show what I can do but I’m so terrified of blowing my chance 😦
I haven’t done much artistically speaking, I’ve been getting home so late the last few weeks. I need to.
I made a sale on etsy and the ring the lady bought from me broke in the mail. I’m mortified. My customers are so important to me and it was awful, getting that message on etsy asking what type of glue she should use to fix the ring.
I work so hard to make sure my materials are all good quality and everything is put together and will STAY together! I know I can’t control the mail but it still stings, knowing something I worked so hard on got broken and the poor client had to fix it!
I’m gearing up here today to do some painting. My mom asked me to paint some glasses for her. It’s not paid work but I enjoy painting and it’s been a while since I’ve done any. I’ll be sure to post the pics when I’m done. I’m sure y’all will like them!
My garden is growing like a weed! I harvested basil last week and made 3 jars of pesto! It was my first try at making pesto but it turned out really good! My mom and brother came over for dinner Thursday night to celebrate the first harvest! We had stuffed peppers, whole grain pasta with my pesto that I had made, garlic bread, and Caprese salad, made with tomatoes and basil from the garden, as well!
Something has been eating my peppers though. I have no clue what, it keeps boring a hole into my peppers and then they rot from the inside out. I’ve tried spraying the peppers and treating the soil but it’s still chewing them up, I really don’t know what to do, I just hope whatever it is doesn’t destroy my watermelons or eggplants either!
. . . and I really don’t care for it!
I thought having an Instagram would help promote my art and my jewelry and while I’m gathering followers and whatnot, as a whole, I really don’t like the app.
Almost immediately I started having technical issues with it. I couldn’t upload pictures, I couldn’t tag pictures, my feed wouldn’t load. I couldn’t “explore” or search for other users. I couldn’t follow people. If I did manage to follow people, they would mysteriously vanish from my account. The first day I had Instagram, I deleted and re-downloaded it three times!
In addition to the technical problems, I really don’t like that all the suggestions that Instagram gives me “based on what’s popular in your country”, is ALL IN ARABIC!!! I live in VIRGINIA!!! IN THE US of FUCKING-A!!! WHY IS MY ENTIRE INSTAGRAM IN ARABIC!?!?!?!?!?!?
There’s no settings that I can change this either!!!!
I hate that I have to refresh the explore button every 20 posts or so to see anything new, unlike pinterest and facebook that just refresh as you scroll.
And this brings me to my biggest issue with Instagram. The posts. I liked a bunch of fitness and recipe posts and now my feed is being bombarded with “thinspiration”. For those of you who don’t know what “thinspiration” is, it’s thigh gaps, jutting collar and pelvic bones, visible rib cages, visible spinal columns. It’s anorexia, bulimia. It’s horrifyingly skinny women and endless lists of why you shouldn’t eat.
Some of the thinspiration posts I’ve seen:
“do it for the thigh gap”- First of all, I’m currently 213 pounds and I have a thigh gap. It all depends on your fat distribution and body physiology. It also depends on your muscles. I’m carrying a little extra weight than I would care to carry and I’m working on it BUT between volleyball, swimming, and MMA I have very toned and muscular legs and a thigh gap. This shouldn’t be a mark of “skinny”. If it is, then I’m a fucking anorexic.
“why reward yourself with food, you are not a dog”- Second, I will reward myself with food. I work really hard to eat clean. Lots of raw fruits and veggies. I try to limit my salt and my sugar intake. I try to keep my food as raw and unprocessed as possible and you know what? I will reward myself with food because if you don’t give into those cravings from time to time, you’ll end up eating half the kitchen trying to avoid those Oreos. I’m not saying go on a Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson style cheat day and eat 100 pancakes but it’s OKAY to have a slice of pizza from time to time.
“waking up thinner is worth going to bed hungry”- Fun fact: Skip that meal and go to bed hungry and your body is probably going to go into starvation mode. When that happens, you’re more likely to GAIN weight than to lose it because your body is going to slow your metabolism down to conserve energy and make that body fat last.
“do it for the short shorts/crop top/bikini [insert any favored article of skimpy clothing]”- My boobs are huge, you wouldn’t catch me in a bikini or crop top even when I *was* 130 pounds. I have more respect for myself than to show off my body like that. I enjoy my denim shorts. I live in Virginia, summers are HOT and they’re HUMID, but I prefer to respect myself and dress in such a way that respects myself and my body, as well as flatters it. I don’t need to be showing my tits to get male attention. Showing miles of skin will get you plenty of attention but I guarantee you, not all of it will be positive.
None of these are okay. Period. I’m not trying to fat shame, slut shame, skinny shame, whatever the fuck you wanna call it. Is fat healthy? No. I’ll be the first to admit that. I used to be 250 pounds and I had a lot of issues with relationships, men, confidence, esteem. I didn’t like how I looked or how I felt and I lost weight. I’m still trying to lose weight but I know I probably won’t ever even get to 150. I know there’s plenty of people who are just naturally skinny. My mom’s one of them, one of my best friends growing up used to be distressed over her apparent inability to GAIN weight. I will never fault anyone for just being skinny but when you do have the means to control your life and your health, you should do so responsibly.
I found the thinspiration posts most disturbing because all I could think of were the little girls I see at the pool. The ones in my swim classes. Eight years old and they’re concerned with their “chubby legs” and won’t take off a tee shirt because they have a little belly. I don’t think there are many 8 year old girls on Instagram but if I had a daughter, I would want her to know that as long as she is eating right and active, she is perfect the way she is and Instagram and other social media sites allowing posts like this:
is doing more harm than good.
I used to be UNDERWEIGHT, believe it or not. My mom was a model when she was younger. 5’1 and 110 pounds. Growing up she was always telling me “that dress looks cute but it would look better if you lost 10 pounds”. I was never anorexic.
On the contrary, her constant commentary on my weight, even when it was healthy (12 years old, 5’5, 135 pounds), I used to look in the mirror and go “I think my tummy pooch looks cute” and I started eating to spite her and my weight ballooned until I had no control any more.
I know from first hand experience how easy it is for that one offhand comment or picture with 50,000 “likes” to send someone over the edge and Instagram and other social media sites have a responsibility, especially when you begin allowing children to use the sites, to protect them from those images.
I’m 25 years old now and I know that puking to lose weight is a bad idea. That eventually your period will stop if you lose too much weight or weigh too much.
I know that forcing myself to throw up is going to make my breath stink and that the stomach acid from doing so will rot my teeth. I know that junk food, high processed and sugary foods will do the same. I know that even my hair could fall out as a byproduct of malnutrition but I’m an adult. I know and understand the balancing act and the consequences of going to extremes. Kids don’t.
I remember when you had to be 18+ and in college to have a facebook and I would even go so far as to label social media sites abusive and neglectful for allowing body conscious posts and allowing children on their sites to be exposed to such images.
I know parents are just as responsible. I have friends who police their kids facebook page but it wasn’t so long ago that I was a kid and I had a myspace page and my parents didn’t know about it. Hell, they didn’t even know I had a deviantART page for that matter. I know kids will find ways around their parents and their rules. I did it. I was a pro at it, which is why social media has a responsibility to monitor the content that’s being posted.
I tried to report several of the posts I saw but Instagram declined to remove them. Popular culture, the media, Hollywood, they’re all responsible for the vast majority of exposure that we will receive. Go stand in the check out line at the grocery store and you’ll probably see dozens of magazine covers:
“[insert celebrite name] shares their weight loss secrets!”, [insert celebrity name] shares secret to MASSIVE weight loss!”, [insert celebrity name] scary skinny after massive 30 pound weight loss!”, “Get In Shape for Summer, [insert celebrity trainer] Shares Their Secrets to the Perfect Bikini Body!”
Isn’t it time, we as a society said “enough is enough”. We need to abandon BMI. It’s a mathematical equation and stop focusing on weight loss, fat or skinny, and focus on healthy. I certainly don’t want any kid of mine to feel inferior because of some “artistically” unfocused, heavily filter photo declaring that you don’t mean a damn thing if you don’t have a damn thigh gap!